I been looking in the mirror for so long...

Soo today it hit me!! people look at me and ask me do u go on like this wearing the sad face during da day?? even if i smile i only feel as if and only they can see through me and see my sadness.I think my friends don't notice it...heck i try to play it off. I try to put a smile on every day but dang each morning it just gets harder. I don't think i evar felt this sad in my life. i wanna cry.but i remenber once some told me WHY U CRY?? IT WON'T CHANGE ANYTHING!!! this person waaas a big impact in my life even if it was only 4 a month in a half after being in this relation all of me when down da drain. my shyness just took over mex1000 more times than before!! My confidence is running low battery as it is and my heart feels as if it's beating slower every time i take a deep breath. I make people feel uncomfortable around me and its hard to talk about how i feel with ppl b/c they don't understand even some of the people that tell me i'm great and smart and beautiful are the same people who put me down most of the time is sooo contradictory!! i just don't know where i stand with some people anymore i feel like some of my friends don't wanna hang out with me.I work and for what??? i got nothing i got a car i can't even drive!! my family ....my mami is sick all the time. everyday she has a headache, pain in her back, her arms, stomache!! and all she does is complain!! I gain like 3 pounds this week, and my brother keeps playing the most depresive songs evar....lol
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for the rest of the night
I'm going to smile more
i'm going to buy me my ipod
try to take my learnes test online
call my old friends
try to do yoga
and try not complain about life since i already did enough in this entry.lol.

DIOS DAME FUERZA DAME PAZ, AMOR, Y FELICIDAD!!

like u plan them to be.....
Tell me darling...

this year:
I WANNA B A BETTER PERSON.
MORE KIND.
MORE GIVING.
MORE UNDERSTABLE TO OTHERS NEEDS.
MORE CONFIDENT.
MORE HAPPY.
MORE FREE SPIRIT ...LOL
2. I WANNA GET MY license for sure and get rid of the fear of driving.
3. I wanna grow in my spiritual life.
4. Make worshiping da lord my prioritie!
5. Graduate with 100 community service hours.
6. save money with my bro to buy a car.
7. Help my mom more with da house bills.
8.Save money to go to Honduras with Emily michie over da summer(this is a must)
9.find me a new job
10.loose 10 pounds.
11.work more on my friendships.
12.Do more humanitarian work like helping out at shelters or just donating stuff at the salvation army.
13.Have more faith.
14.work on my dreams.
15. go 2 college!
and learn to love me.soo i can bring out the best of other people around.
ohh yeah and keep my room more clean...since if u know me u know its alwayz a mess..lol
16. LAST BUT NOT LEAST AND DA MOST IMPORTANT
LEARN HOW TO SEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! SINCE I WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH FASHION!!

soo this r my new years resolutions. :)

FIRSTABLE HOLY FREAKING FUDGES EMILY MICHIE WHERE R U LOVE I NEED TO TALK TO YOU LIKE SOON!! I MISS YOU THA'S ALL !! TE EXTRANOOOOOO MUCHO!! I'M CURENTLY DRINKING CHOCOLATE IS SOO FREAKING COLD OUTSIDE IS NOT EVEN FUNNY. THIS PAST 2 SUNDAYS HAVE BEEN THE SHIZZNESS YES THA'S MY NEW VOCABULARY WORD. LOL. I LOVE GOING TO CHURCH ON SUNDAYS AND HANGING OUT WITH MY YOUTH GROUP B/C THEY'RE DA BOMB ME AND JEAN GOT IN A BROWNIE FIGHT AT CICIS PIZZA WE HAD WHITE POWDER ALL OVER OURSELVES.HAHA. i CALL INTO WORK.I WANNA IT 2 STAY AT CHURCH YESTERDAY. :) i AM CURRENTLY HAPPY.
REASONS Y:
1.I AM ALIVE.
2.JESUS LOVES ME.
3.I KNOW WHO IS THERE FOR ME N WHOSE NOT.
4.I'M LEARNING HOW TO LET GO.
5.G-SUS GOT MY BACK IN ALL MY PROBLEMS FOREALS FOREALS*
6.I'M NOT HOLDING ANY GRUDGES IN MY HEART FOR DA FIRST TIME.
7.I'M GOING TO PLAY SOCCER TODAY <3
8. IMMA GO WATCH DA BOIS PLAY SOCCER TODAY LOL
9.:) B/C I CAN SMILE IN DA MIST OF IT ALL
10.B/C I LOVE ME! AND I AM AN AMAZING PERSON AND THERE FOR I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS!
LOL <3

Tu colecionista de canciones
lo que sone me vida entera
quedate en ella
y asme sentir
y haci en tu misterio poder descubrir
ir transformando la magia
tu
solamente quiero que seas tu
mi locura mi tranquilidad y mi delirio, mi compas
tu COLLECCIONISTA de canciones
dame razones para vivir


para estar siempre contigo amoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooor <3
Mil emociones son para ti!!

And let it rain and clear it out
And let it rain and clear it out
soo I love the song and the dance...too bad i missed it when they play it at homecoming.
I got to say this has been the hardest days of my life lately with soccer tryouts and i gave it my all every single day I was limping around school due to my right foot somehow i got injured and i was hurting all over da place i come to find out I can't play b/c of my gpa last year it was a 1.97 and it supposed to b at least at 2.0 I was and i am heartbroken I maade stupid decisions last year and now I pay da consequences..it sucks.I cry soo hard when they didn't call my name the next day in tryouts,friday.the same on thursday when i found out about my gpa might keep me out from playing Spencer broke up with me he said he need it a break he was confused and he need to find himself n that we weren't working out anymore..the same day my mom forgets to pick me up from work soo i'm stuck at da mall till 10 somethang at nite soo i decided to walk to megans house is around Bells and some lady pulls over and offers me a ride but i'm like no thanks and she's like do u need to used the phone soo i was yes please soo i called megan and told her i was coming over and the lady gave me a ride to her house thank God b/c at all this my leg was hurting from tryouts and from standing all day at work soo i was hurting. I tell u guys i never felt like that useless and worthless and like a big piece of crap in my life but my friends were and still are there for me they pull me through they bought my homecoming ticket and i had a lot of ppl offering me a dress soo i can go and I thank God for Silvia and Genie I love u guys. We went to HOmecoming at first I was like i don't wanna b here but than they play some music and i put everything to da side and enjoy myself ..after homecoming i went home with Silvia and i slept over her house walk up today and we cleaned the house and went to her neighboors soccer game and than they drop me off home.soo it was a good weekend after all. And let's c I don't think i'll give up soccer i'll still play and i'm praying for my friends and being supportive soo they can make it in da team soo i can go c them play!!!OHH i saw the movie ATL WITH T.I. AND THE GUY FROM OUTKAST I LOVE THE MOVIE!! everytime i need some time a long I watch a movie it just takes me somewhere else and it feels as if it just cleans me up inside and feels me with hope for some reason. God thank u for being there with me every single day and I pray to you Jesus to help me be a better me and give me the strenght to keep on fighting this good battle in the name of you lord
I pray
Amen.


how did i went from singing chicken noodle soup to praying??? lol

U no when something is wrong and u shouldn't wanna it do it but u still wanna it do it anyways? Y? when like ur like in a diet and u shouldn't eat da cake but u whole ahead and eat it anywayz..tha's how i feel rite now i wanna eat da cake even though i'm not suppose too. is weird. work was good today.JOnny=doosh. Vicky=Smart ally lol
Snow patrol<3<3
I have some good news.I might be getting a car pronto.Sweeeeeeeeeeeet!!
ummm....its sooo weird what i feel everytime i hold a microphone is just feels soo good soo comfortable like i'm just meant to be there is idk on thursday i wasn't suppose to sang at church plus when i got there da service had already started but Jc ask me if i wanna it to sing and in a heartbeat i said yes and just went to da front and grab the microphone and started singing with Jean and Jay. like even if i don't wanna sing for the Youth service I can't help it. is like something i have to do. I just feel it. and it felt soo good holding da microphone between my hands...it just felt soo like it just completed me it made sound lame or whatevar but tha's one of da most amazing feeling i have had in a long time.

Live to da fullest b/c we only live life once!!!

when someone stares at u but is already going out with someone else? when u guys both look at each other not saying anything but probably saying a million things somehow? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm going crazy. I'm ignoring ese Peladoooo for da best. NO more staring POR FAVOR AMIGO......!!!!!!!! POR FAVOREEEEEE!!!! UR DRIVING ME NUTS AMIGOOOOOO!!! DON'T KNOW Y i'm writing this but yea i just have toooooo. NO more. NO more. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ur not da one for me!! lol
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School has been pretty chill. the assembly today...lol me n Genie had fun playing with her happy meal toy lol and The 3 Musketeers are da best Chicas u will evar meet in ur life just sooo everyone knows...haha!!UMM CRoss Crountry here I come!!!!! Runsssssssssssssssssss lolz
Soccer................ahhh i can't wait.
Lionettes I will give it a try.
Umm....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...Ice cream is da best.and Wendys Chicken Sandwiches are just wonderful. DR.Pepper is now my new addiction. Locker combinations r hard to remenber. Smiling is sooo much fun. dancing =laughter
singing=peace
kindless=love
me=happy & faithfull
kids r adorable.
vicky picky
vicky bananas
Genie Budini
Genie bananas
Silvia Passcode
Silvia bananas...lol


I love da word bananas. and the song London bridge by Fergie ..ohhh and I'm bringing sexy back by JUstin timberlake. ahhhh love.ahhh love.

woot woot!!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Shrinking Goliath Your Superpower is Super Speed Your Weakness is Chocolate Your Weapon is Your Electro Arrows Your Mode of Transportation is Sleigh

TO FLY U WILL NEED WINGS. TO DREAM U WILL NEED A DREAM. TO LOVE U WILL NEED A HEART FIRST.


i JUST FINISH WATCHING DA MOVIE Y TU MAMA TAMBIEN....as this moment this second in time is one of my favorite spanish movies that i evar seen in my life. I also saw Medias Family reunion....HI-LARIOUS !!!!! I wanna go c Miami vice, and Clerks 2 soo bad but i have to work this weekend b/c next weekend i will be in da studio with my bro. ahhh this summer has been pretty amazing. God is Good. God is good that's all have to say. went to da beach last week when i was up in North Carolina ahhhh I loved it!!! Went to da mall ...I can't wait till i see that video they record while we were up there...dude i sooo bought me a sombrero lol ...they recorded me sleeping on da way back here to florida with my mouth open and propably slabering all over myself...embarasing lol some ppl already saw it.. haha. I had fun though. Saw lots of cute bois. I'm taking probably my learners test today online. i took my drug course thingy yesterday...ahhhh i'm just glad i past the crap four hours. UMM i need to go shopping this friday since i work da weekend Again. but whatever. I have an ipod on layaway in Wall mart...lol still need to pay alot to get it though but i'm getting there plus i have a month to pay it off soo i will be fine .umm need to pay Silvia back for Shakiras Concert ticket before September.Ummm I saw my g/f my mexican mamasita of all times yesterday after work. I stood at her house until like 12 and than my bro pick me up soo that was pretty sweet. I love da gurl we laugh sooo much it makes me happy. well i need to go eat. And genie if u read this I love u. I truely do. and I lost ur number either wise i would it have already call u. Emily Michie ur HOt. and

ps. Vivamos minuto a minuto.

lol sooo today woo and hoo for pshhh being alive...lol my weekend was a-ok it didn't turn out what i wanna it too since i worked but still made it to see my chicas in Pc soo that was nice. Although something happen while i was over there that left me speechless n in shock and not in a good way. It scared that crap out of me...seriously when u have ur best friends mom crying while she's talking to u and u don't know what to say to make her feel better there was only one thang i can do to make her feel better....LISTEN.i DID. SOMETHING NOT MANY PPL DO. THEY ALWAYS LOOK FOR A PERSON TO TALK TO. BUT THEY DON'T PUT THEIRSELFS IN THER SHOES. IN MY HEAD there were a million prayers going on...Help me God,give me word to comfort her ...but nothing came to mind. I just listen. All i wanna it to do was reach out to hugh her and tell everything was gonna be fine but I was too in shock to do anything...right now I realize there is soo much out there than me spending my paycheck to paycheck on myself ....they been lacking money and they had it to borrow money to buy food just the other day...I'm thinking to go grocery shopping and taking it to them. Today I might go to da mall and meet Jeanelle at work soo we can go buy a baby basket for Wendells baby(co-worker) we will pay half n half,I have church practice I'm singing friday for the church campaign. Imma go open a savings account. I need to save my MULA!!!! ohhh def. workout.ohhh need to buy my Taking back sunday,angels and Airwaves,The subways and Headautomatica ticket for next thursday Idk how imma do it but these is a must go concert...TBS is my favorite band evar and if i don't see them I'll die....lol literally!!

today is sunday lol ok let's try that again today is wednesday haha
victoria Henriquez is an absolutely happy human being at this moment in timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! lol Thank god! Pms gone! Infection on my right eye for 3 days..........GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! LOL THANK GOD!! :) MY EYE got infected at Warped tour the heat kill my eye lol it was nasty i had pus coming out of my eye I made it through da day thanks to a pair of aviators I bought for 10 bucks. My whole weekend was amazing!! Thursday went to Black n Brew!my bro play umm..i had a good time i saw the sexys black men i have evar saw in my life when they sang i almost cream my pants lol umm me and londa had fun! friday went bowling and Macadinis afterwards with the youth group it was soo much fun! I barely get to see them since i'm alwayz working. Saturday i worked and spent da nite at megans house with tracey,nessa. we couldn't go to sleep we were too excited about Sunday!!! it was soo crazy we waited 2 hours outside to get in!!!! it was soo hot!! I croud surf!! this guy was flirting with me..he was cute lol, I saw Armor for sleep live they're show was crazy 3 ppl got drop on my head soo me and nessa almost got killed soo we got da security guy to pull us out. I saw the Academy is live ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh amazing Black mamba def. my favorite song!!! I saw SAves the day,Thursday,Rise against,Underoath,Emery, anti flag, the singer from HelloGoodbye sign my converse, the singer from Saves the day took a pic with me and sign my shirt
me and nessa got lost i was about to freak out but we found our mates soo tha's turn out to b fine!!! we were waiting for plain white ts to come out to play when kazers dad call and said we had it to leave he was waiting already outside I was sooo pissed and relieved at the same time b/c my eye was killing me! but i really wanna it to c PWT and afterwards we were gonna c Silverstein and Motion city soundtrack soo that kinda suck but whaatever there is alwayz next year. It was craaaaaaaaaaaazy we got tons of free sampler from bands me n Tray bought a bag and i got to keep it, Megan bought a shirt and came with a free hat I got to keep the Hat!! took pics!! got free sticker and posters...the whole experience was soooooooooooooo worth it!! although i must confesed My mom didn't knew a thang about it ....I lied to her sooo I thank God i didn't get caught!!!
immma go eat...i'm hungry man lol

Sooooo yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??? Hello Querido Livejournal. My life is full of awkard moments that I wouldn't change them for anything in da world b/c that makes me..well meee!!! lol I been feeling like crap lately yesterday was a boring day at my job.Wendell is a tease. but I'm not complaining. He's my babys daddy...lol well me and Jeanell babys daddy. me and Jeanell are applying at this other place soo we can work together. Yesterday i went to applebees with da Familia a little unsual.but good. Me and J r buying Wendells baby a baby basket from Dillards. Past Saturday well this past sat. was amazing I almost pee in my pants at work. we got to work togethar and everyone was just like what did u guys had for breakfast we were talking in spanish soo noone knew what we were saying which is a plus ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ gosh it made time go by soo quickly. I saw the LakeHOuse it was good. if u like a chick flick than go see it either wise u will hate it. some guy was crying..lol it was funny.
I cry last nite I pray and talk to God b/c there is soo much going on in my house and it was good. I seriously can Say God is my best friend as lame as this make sound to any of ya. It doesn't to me. N I like that. I saw da Movie Maria full of Grace is an awesome movie. and tonight I'm seeing City of God hopefully is good. I been watchin almost every single World cup soccer game. b.c I <3 soccer. next week I start conditioning for next year.I'm stock 'bout that!!! today is a better day indeed. Tomorow I'm going running i can't wait...ahhh I enjoy exercising. ohhh and Wed.I'm buying my Warped Tour ticket.Me+Megan+Tray+Nessa=we're going.

Ps. I love the Nelly furtado song ....u know what i want and I got what u need.

LAUGH NOW CRY LATER!!!

SOMEONE FAMOUS ONCE SAID....WELL TO BE HONEST I DON'T REMENBER WHO SAID IT BUT IT GOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS:

WHY DO WE LAUGH WHEN WE'RE AROUND OTHERS
and CRY WHEN WE'RE BY OURSELFS
WHY NOT SHARE OUR TEARS WITH OTHERS
AND LAUGH MORE OFTEN WHEN WE'RE ALONE.

DONE.

Is define as an attraction
maybe
perphaps as an obsecion
the first time my eyes lay on u
I stop for a second and
realize how much I was drawn to u
there was a voice in my head
telling me to go on and sit next you
to start a conversation
but I was too scared
I was a chicken
.......ahhh ur stuck in my head.....................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I don't even know who you are
whatta heck!!!I cant stop thinking about da moment our eyes met u kept staring at me....
I kept taking piks at you
but you left without me saying goodbye
u didn't gave me a chance to hollar at u
as u pass me by
ur stuck!ur stuck in my head!

lol i'm currently talking to my Hot mamasita Meganizzle :) Umm let's c it was a good weekend. I went to eat some Mexican food,I saw Scary movie 4 which it was great lol umm I was in Plant city w/some amigos we were hanging out eating barbecuing it was fun. and Today i try to give blood but I was 3 pounds under weight...so i couldn't give blood Whatta heck!!!!!RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....!!!! Ohh well i try...let's c today i got 2 study 4 a test,umm finish my make up work 4 science,study for English........aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..umm let's c I got c Cinderela with hilary duff...on it ..Vanessa let me borrow it...OHH ohh yesterday Me and Vanessa hanged out I like it b/c like it was not plan and it was like in da spare of da moment i didn't ask permision to go and she didn't told her mom but it was all cool. WE walk around the lake, took some pics,went 2 da thrift store but it was closed :( we had some cokes n Cotton Candy, we rented Dick and Jane but we forgot to watch it lol
Ummm.... Yo voy a sonreir :)
shows grillz....hahaha

As much as I'm drawn to you
is how much i despise you
As much as u make me smile
at the same time u make me angry
As much as I say I love you
I keep thinking to myself
how much I hate you
As much as we're soo alike
WE both know we're diferente
As much as we're connected
at the same time we're strangers
As much as I'm close to you
WE both know I wanna b millions of miles away from you
As how many times I say I need you
I know I'm lying to you
As how many times I tell you u make me happy
the sad truth is that U make me feel like crap
As much as I wanna talk to you
I wanna just sit there and look away in silent
As much attention do you need
is not what i'm willing to give to you.....<3


Sincerely YOurs,
your one hate but loving friend!!

turn off so they can't see you
the very best of what u got to offer
Tell them what your hands were made for,tell them who ur mouth was made for
You got your profits and your mathaticians
the fuel of a generation
Tell me what my hands were made for,tell me who my mouth was made for
And please don't be mad at me
Well u get what u ask for
Soo come on,Come on, come on
Come on, come on,Come on

but I, I wanna get myself back
tonight,tonight,tonight
tonight,tonight,tonight
BUT I WAS NICE
YEAH I WAS NICE
I WILL NOT GIVE UP
I WILL NOT GIVE UP
WHAT DO U KNOW?
WHAT DO U KNOW?

r they da same? Or do they just go along well together? Idk but I sure like to have more of that...in general.Sooo lately I been looking at da news i know not a big deal but for me it is I don't watch da news I really don't ...tha's y I never know about Hurricanes,Storms and stuff like that unless is like when i flip da channel but I Can't watch da news b/c there is soo many problems in da world and I can't help soo I rather not watched it which is Rather IGNORANT of me i think sooo now I watch da news every now and than to keep myself inform. I am beyond words about da new Law da goverment wants to pass many of u may not agreed w/me and tha's fine but c it this way
Those ppl do da jobs that nobody wants to do they pick fruits which I am really thankfull for and Clean many places where all da office ppl work in. Big industries and stuff like that yep they keep ur Crap clean...and it's not fair that they're fighting for a better new life for their family and their not like stealing or anything they're working hard and for the goverment to decide well I don't want this ppl in my country or there families is just plain unfair. and dont' say life is unfair.. heck life is unfair sometimes but that doesn't give them the rigth to ruin da chances of having their kids to be able to become Someone in their lives. And whatever man u can think whatever u want but this is how i feel about it. You don't have to be in da same train as other to be able to hop on it.
QUE DIOS LOS BENDIGA HOY Y SIEMPRE<3

lol I"m in da school library...we have a sub.woot woot...lol but i was bored so i decided to just come and mess around in da computer....My weekend wasn't bad at all Monday I went to da Coffee house and than to Pats house and than to IHOP AT 2 in da moorning it was fun got home at 3:40 am went to bed at 4:30 am woke up at 5:30 to go to epcot it was fun. but i won't go into detail since the ladie is about to come check on me...lol anywayz this weekend should be fun and idk... I love u Emily...ur beautiful and it's true.
g2g bye

Woke up late at 7:08am yesterday I heard my mom saying well Victoria Stayed home again...i looked up at da clock and I screamed AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! than my mom is like get ready i'll take u to school. umm got 2 school not much happen i skip 6th pd. went 2 first lunch instead of going to french class and than after first lunch was ovar I went to Genies class i was just waiting for da bell 2 ring 2 go 2 da learning Center but Genie had a sub. so I just went inside her class and stayed there for the 6thpd. the teacher didn't even notice that she called out Attendance and that my name wasn't on there. It was funny b/c she was u two gurls need to start doing yo work...lol me n Genie went online just messing around fun,fun!! lol Let's later at nite me and my Youth group went to this Bonfire in BArtow it was fun omgeeves we almost got killed ...some peeps r just bad drivers man...hahaha..lol it was fun we play some games..ate some food and now I"m officially Black according to J.c and Carlos I"m ghettox103485857565859 pshh hellz nooo. Today cleaned da house, kind of Clean my room, got ready and went to Plant city My friends were throwing a suprise party for my B.F. Jessica it was fun we ate,took some pics. Play around and watch HOt bois skate and BMx this one boi came to Talk to us ...ahh HOttie!!! lol w/a HOt car 2 lol ...Now i'm home fixing to watch a movie ...although rite now i'm watching Grease ...Jesus i'm sooo worry 'bout my mommi she went to pick me n sis up and we just got home and she just puke her out ...no kidding she's been sick for a week already ahh it's awful. :(
well i'm out...
Summer loving happen soo fast
I met boi cute as can be
Tell me more tell more..
was it love as first sight.....

Why is vintage in? Why is Scene cool? Why is been intouch with ur feelings bad? When did it become okay for gurls to be sooo self conscious(i'm sure i spell that wrong lol) about our weight? When did everyone became crazy? When did we loose our drive to become a better person? When did Starving people became the person everyone wants to be like?When did sadness become the most common emotion to feel? What happen to Happiness? When did the weather become warmer and When and Why the our hearts become Colder? Why crying and sadness become like a sickness that soon and somehow and in some way catches up to everyone and it brings them down for days?When did money become what makes the world go around? When did dreams become impossible? When did hope became over come by the word realistic? When did love become soo unreacheable? When did music became the only reason to live for? When did mirrors become our enemys? When did people became soo complicated? When did normal people became our idols?When did time became never enough? sometimes too much but alwayz not enough!When did it became OKAY for people to label things and People? who gave u the power to label others?WHEN? WHERE? HOW AND WHY?