Posted on 2007.01.13 at 17:21
Current Location: ROOM
Current Music: AGUSTANA
Soo today it hit me!! people look at me and ask me do u go on like this wearing the sad face during da day?? even if i smile i only feel as if and only they can see through me and see my sadness.I think my friends don't notice it...heck i try to play it off. I try to put a smile on every day but dang each morning it just gets harder. I don't think i evar felt this sad in my life. i wanna cry.but i remenber once some told me WHY U CRY?? IT WON'T CHANGE ANYTHING!!! this person waaas a big impact in my life even if it was only 4 a month in a half after being in this relation all of me when down da drain. my shyness just took over mex1000 more times than before!! My confidence is running low battery as it is and my heart feels as if it's beating slower every time i take a deep breath. I make people feel uncomfortable around me and its hard to talk about how i feel with ppl b/c they don't understand even some of the people that tell me i'm great and smart and beautiful are the same people who put me down most of the time is sooo contradictory!! i just don't know where i stand with some people anymore i feel like some of my friends don't wanna hang out with me.I work and for what??? i got nothing i got a car i can't even drive!! my family ....my mami is sick all the time. everyday she has a headache, pain in her back, her arms, stomache!! and all she does is complain!! I gain like 3 pounds this week, and my brother keeps playing the most depresive songs evar....lol
for the rest of the night
I'm going to smile more
i'm going to buy me my ipod
try to take my learnes test online
call my old friends
try to do yoga
and try not complain about life since i already did enough in this entry.lol.
DIOS DAME FUERZA DAME PAZ, AMOR, Y FELICIDAD!!
Posted on 2007.01.02 at 18:17
Current Music: A WONDERFUL CHIRSTIAN SONG...i dont' know that name...
like u plan them to be.....
Tell me darling...
I WANNA B A BETTER PERSON.
MORE UNDERSTABLE TO OTHERS NEEDS.
MORE FREE SPIRIT ...LOL
2. I WANNA GET MY license for sure and get rid of the fear of driving.
3. I wanna grow in my spiritual life.
4. Make worshiping da lord my prioritie!
5. Graduate with 100 community service hours.
6. save money with my bro to buy a car.
7. Help my mom more with da house bills.
8.Save money to go to Honduras with Emily michie over da summer(this is a must)
9.find me a new job
10.loose 10 pounds.
11.work more on my friendships.
12.Do more humanitarian work like helping out at shelters or just donating stuff at the salvation army.
13.Have more faith.
14.work on my dreams.
15. go 2 college!
and learn to love me.soo i can bring out the best of other people around.
ohh yeah and keep my room more clean...since if u know me u know its alwayz a mess..lol
16. LAST BUT NOT LEAST AND DA MOST IMPORTANT
LEARN HOW TO SEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! SINCE I WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH FASHION!!
soo this r my new years resolutions. :)
Posted on 2006.11.20 at 16:54
Current Location: IN THE MOON
Current Mood: calm
FIRSTABLE HOLY FREAKING FUDGES EMILY MICHIE WHERE R U LOVE I NEED TO TALK TO YOU LIKE SOON!! I MISS YOU THA'S ALL !! TE EXTRANOOOOOO MUCHO!! I'M CURENTLY DRINKING CHOCOLATE IS SOO FREAKING COLD OUTSIDE IS NOT EVEN FUNNY. THIS PAST 2 SUNDAYS HAVE BEEN THE SHIZZNESS YES THA'S MY NEW VOCABULARY WORD. LOL. I LOVE GOING TO CHURCH ON SUNDAYS AND HANGING OUT WITH MY YOUTH GROUP B/C THEY'RE DA BOMB ME AND JEAN GOT IN A BROWNIE FIGHT AT CICIS PIZZA WE HAD WHITE POWDER ALL OVER OURSELVES.HAHA. i CALL INTO WORK.I WANNA IT 2 STAY AT CHURCH YESTERDAY. :) i AM CURRENTLY HAPPY.
1.I AM ALIVE.
2.JESUS LOVES ME.
3.I KNOW WHO IS THERE FOR ME N WHOSE NOT.
4.I'M LEARNING HOW TO LET GO.
5.G-SUS GOT MY BACK IN ALL MY PROBLEMS FOREALS FOREALS*
6.I'M NOT HOLDING ANY GRUDGES IN MY HEART FOR DA FIRST TIME.
7.I'M GOING TO PLAY SOCCER TODAY <3
8. IMMA GO WATCH DA BOIS PLAY SOCCER TODAY LOL
9.:) B/C I CAN SMILE IN DA MIST OF IT ALL
10.B/C I LOVE ME! AND I AM AN AMAZING PERSON AND THERE FOR I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS!
Posted on 2006.11.02 at 03:57
Current Location: bed thinking...hmmmmm
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Camila
Tu colecionista de canciones
lo que sone me vida entera
quedate en ella
y asme sentir
y haci en tu misterio poder descubrir
ir transformando la magia
solamente quiero que seas tu
mi locura mi tranquilidad y mi delirio, mi compas
tu COLLECCIONISTA de canciones
dame razones para vivir
para estar siempre contigo amoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooor <3
Mil emociones son para ti!!
Posted on 2006.10.16 at 01:01
Current Mood: happy
And let it rain and clear it out
And let it rain and clear it out
soo I love the song and the dance...too bad i missed it when they play it at homecoming.
I got to say this has been the hardest days of my life lately with soccer tryouts and i gave it my all every single day I was limping around school due to my right foot somehow i got injured and i was hurting all over da place i come to find out I can't play b/c of my gpa last year it was a 1.97 and it supposed to b at least at 2.0 I was and i am heartbroken I maade stupid decisions last year and now I pay da consequences..it sucks.I cry soo hard when they didn't call my name the next day in tryouts,friday.the same on thursday when i found out about my gpa might keep me out from playing Spencer broke up with me he said he need it a break he was confused and he need to find himself n that we weren't working out anymore..the same day my mom forgets to pick me up from work soo i'm stuck at da mall till 10 somethang at nite soo i decided to walk to megans house is around Bells and some lady pulls over and offers me a ride but i'm like no thanks and she's like do u need to used the phone soo i was yes please soo i called megan and told her i was coming over and the lady gave me a ride to her house thank God b/c at all this my leg was hurting from tryouts and from standing all day at work soo i was hurting. I tell u guys i never felt like that useless and worthless and like a big piece of crap in my life but my friends were and still are there for me they pull me through they bought my homecoming ticket and i had a lot of ppl offering me a dress soo i can go and I thank God for Silvia and Genie I love u guys. We went to HOmecoming at first I was like i don't wanna b here but than they play some music and i put everything to da side and enjoy myself ..after homecoming i went home with Silvia and i slept over her house walk up today and we cleaned the house and went to her neighboors soccer game and than they drop me off home.soo it was a good weekend after all. And let's c I don't think i'll give up soccer i'll still play and i'm praying for my friends and being supportive soo they can make it in da team soo i can go c them play!!!OHH i saw the movie ATL WITH T.I. AND THE GUY FROM OUTKAST I LOVE THE MOVIE!! everytime i need some time a long I watch a movie it just takes me somewhere else and it feels as if it just cleans me up inside and feels me with hope for some reason. God thank u for being there with me every single day and I pray to you Jesus to help me be a better me and give me the strenght to keep on fighting this good battle in the name of you lord
how did i went from singing chicken noodle soup to praying??? lol
Posted on 2006.08.21 at 00:30
Current Location: room
Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: snow patrol
U no when something is wrong and u shouldn't wanna it do it but u still wanna it do it anyways? Y? when like ur like in a diet and u shouldn't eat da cake but u whole ahead and eat it anywayz..tha's how i feel rite now i wanna eat da cake even though i'm not suppose too. is weird. work was good today.JOnny=doosh. Vicky=Smart ally lol
I have some good news.I might be getting a car pronto.Sweeeeeeeeeeeet!!
ummm....its sooo weird what i feel everytime i hold a microphone is just feels soo good soo comfortable like i'm just meant to be there is idk on thursday i wasn't suppose to sang at church plus when i got there da service had already started but Jc ask me if i wanna it to sing and in a heartbeat i said yes and just went to da front and grab the microphone and started singing with Jean and Jay. like even if i don't wanna sing for the Youth service I can't help it. is like something i have to do. I just feel it. and it felt soo good holding da microphone between my hands...it just felt soo like it just completed me it made sound lame or whatevar but tha's one of da most amazing feeling i have had in a long time.
Live to da fullest b/c we only live life once!!!
Posted on 2006.08.13 at 00:34
Current Location: bed.
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: natasha
when someone stares at u but is already going out with someone else? when u guys both look at each other not saying anything but probably saying a million things somehow? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm going crazy. I'm ignoring ese Peladoooo for da best. NO more staring POR FAVOR AMIGO......!!!!!!!! POR FAVOREEEEEE!!!! UR DRIVING ME NUTS AMIGOOOOOO!!! DON'T KNOW Y i'm writing this but yea i just have toooooo. NO more. NO more. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ur not da one for me!! lol
School has been pretty chill. the assembly today...lol me n Genie had fun playing with her happy meal toy lol and The 3 Musketeers are da best Chicas u will evar meet in ur life just sooo everyone knows...haha!!UMM CRoss Crountry here I come!!!!! Runsssssssssssssssssss lolz
Soccer................ahhh i can't wait.
Lionettes I will give it a try.
Umm....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...Ice cream is da best.and Wendys Chicken Sandwiches are just wonderful. DR.Pepper is now my new addiction. Locker combinations r hard to remenber. Smiling is sooo much fun. dancing =laughter
me=happy & faithfull
kids r adorable.
I love da word bananas. and the song London bridge by Fergie ..ohhh and I'm bringing sexy back by JUstin timberlake. ahhhh love.ahhh love.
Posted on 2006.08.03 at 12:53
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Posted on 2006.08.03 at 12:38
Current Location: bros room
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Natasha
TO FLY U WILL NEED WINGS. TO DREAM U WILL NEED A DREAM. TO LOVE U WILL NEED A HEART FIRST.
i JUST FINISH WATCHING DA MOVIE Y TU MAMA TAMBIEN....as this moment this second in time is one of my favorite spanish movies that i evar seen in my life. I also saw Medias Family reunion....HI-LARIOUS !!!!! I wanna go c Miami vice, and Clerks 2 soo bad but i have to work this weekend b/c next weekend i will be in da studio with my bro. ahhh this summer has been pretty amazing. God is Good. God is good that's all have to say. went to da beach last week when i was up in North Carolina ahhhh I loved it!!! Went to da mall ...I can't wait till i see that video they record while we were up there...dude i sooo bought me a sombrero lol ...they recorded me sleeping on da way back here to florida with my mouth open and propably slabering all over myself...embarasing lol some ppl already saw it.. haha. I had fun though. Saw lots of cute bois. I'm taking probably my learners test today online. i took my drug course thingy yesterday...ahhhh i'm just glad i past the crap four hours. UMM i need to go shopping this friday since i work da weekend Again. but whatever. I have an ipod on layaway in Wall mart...lol still need to pay alot to get it though but i'm getting there plus i have a month to pay it off soo i will be fine .umm need to pay Silvia back for Shakiras Concert ticket before September.Ummm I saw my g/f my mexican mamasita of all times yesterday after work. I stood at her house until like 12 and than my bro pick me up soo that was pretty sweet. I love da gurl we laugh sooo much it makes me happy. well i need to go eat. And genie if u read this I love u. I truely do. and I lost ur number either wise i would it have already call u. Emily Michie ur HOt. and
ps. Vivamos minuto a minuto.
Posted on 2006.07.04 at 11:27
Current Location: living room
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: none
lol sooo today woo and hoo for pshhh being alive...lol my weekend was a-ok it didn't turn out what i wanna it too since i worked but still made it to see my chicas in Pc soo that was nice. Although something happen while i was over there that left me speechless n in shock and not in a good way. It scared that crap out of me...seriously when u have ur best friends mom crying while she's talking to u and u don't know what to say to make her feel better there was only one thang i can do to make her feel better....LISTEN.i DID. SOMETHING NOT MANY PPL DO. THEY ALWAYS LOOK FOR A PERSON TO TALK TO. BUT THEY DON'T PUT THEIRSELFS IN THER SHOES. IN MY HEAD there were a million prayers going on...Help me God,give me word to comfort her ...but nothing came to mind. I just listen. All i wanna it to do was reach out to hugh her and tell everything was gonna be fine but I was too in shock to do anything...right now I realize there is soo much out there than me spending my paycheck to paycheck on myself ....they been lacking money and they had it to borrow money to buy food just the other day...I'm thinking to go grocery shopping and taking it to them. Today I might go to da mall and meet Jeanelle at work soo we can go buy a baby basket for Wendells baby(co-worker) we will pay half n half,I have church practice I'm singing friday for the church campaign. Imma go open a savings account. I need to save my MULA!!!! ohhh def. workout.ohhh need to buy my Taking back sunday,angels and Airwaves,The subways and Headautomatica ticket for next thursday Idk how imma do it but these is a must go concert...TBS is my favorite band evar and if i don't see them I'll die....lol literally!!